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well it's been a while since i last posted here
some life updates:
-i got into college! yay me! i'm going to hopefully study art and computer programming to try to get a job in video games
-speaking of which, i'm looking into applying for an internship at a nearby gamedev studio, more on that when i can find the courage to send an email
i realized tonight -after a short bout of feeling entirely inadequate because of comparing myself to others- that it's been close to 5 years (minus some months) since i joined this site and started really getting into digital art and really trying to get myself out there
and i suppose that doesn't really matter except that i started thinking about what i was like back then
i was 13, not good enough to actually commit to doing art but thought waaay too highly of myself, and i always got angry when i saw someone my age -or younger- who was markedly better than i was
unfortunately that part hasn't changed much, except i don't have the confidence to think highly of myself and instead of getting angry i just... well, cry okay
and thinking back on the things i've said and done, i was a real annoying jerk!!
even today i regret... pretty much everything that came from that era
fortunately, and god i don't know how, i made older friends, we stuck together even when i was -i realize now- this really terrible oblivious kid,
now, at least in recent months, i've come to really appreciate those people -lookin at you m'rin and rinny! - who stuck with me through that phase who i really looked up to
tonight i realized that hey, i could be one of those people, i realized, wow i don't know what i'd do if people started looking up to me -mess up, that's what-
i guess the best way to start is to dispense some knowledge i've gleaned over these past 4 years and 5 months
1. if you're 13 and just starting out, do your best, experiment, go out of your comfort zone with art or writing or whatever you do, just do AS MUCH as you can, make those characters, join rp groups!! enjoy the freedom you have to experiment right now. later on you'll probably regret some of the things you've done, like i do, but that's okay. you're going to change every year. you'll look back a year from now, look at your art, and say "wow what was i THINKING." and you know what? that's improvement. that's good.
2. if you're looking back to when you were 13, don't think about what you regret, forgive yourself and relish in the comfort you once had with experimenting, the freedom you had. you know what i'll say it again: FORGIVE YOURSELF
everyone should remember that every day you learn new things about the world, some will make you want to cry.... or make you actually cry, but remember every once in a while to look back at how far you've come!
okay this got really rambly and sappy and i'm not even sure if it's comprehensible, peeps may not believe me too, that's fine, you do you guys
you do you
some life updates:
-i got into college! yay me! i'm going to hopefully study art and computer programming to try to get a job in video games
-speaking of which, i'm looking into applying for an internship at a nearby gamedev studio, more on that when i can find the courage to send an email
i realized tonight -after a short bout of feeling entirely inadequate because of comparing myself to others- that it's been close to 5 years (minus some months) since i joined this site and started really getting into digital art and really trying to get myself out there
and i suppose that doesn't really matter except that i started thinking about what i was like back then
i was 13, not good enough to actually commit to doing art but thought waaay too highly of myself, and i always got angry when i saw someone my age -or younger- who was markedly better than i was
unfortunately that part hasn't changed much, except i don't have the confidence to think highly of myself and instead of getting angry i just... well, cry okay
and thinking back on the things i've said and done, i was a real annoying jerk!!
even today i regret... pretty much everything that came from that era
fortunately, and god i don't know how, i made older friends, we stuck together even when i was -i realize now- this really terrible oblivious kid,
now, at least in recent months, i've come to really appreciate those people -lookin at you m'rin and rinny! - who stuck with me through that phase who i really looked up to
tonight i realized that hey, i could be one of those people, i realized, wow i don't know what i'd do if people started looking up to me -mess up, that's what-
i guess the best way to start is to dispense some knowledge i've gleaned over these past 4 years and 5 months
1. if you're 13 and just starting out, do your best, experiment, go out of your comfort zone with art or writing or whatever you do, just do AS MUCH as you can, make those characters, join rp groups!! enjoy the freedom you have to experiment right now. later on you'll probably regret some of the things you've done, like i do, but that's okay. you're going to change every year. you'll look back a year from now, look at your art, and say "wow what was i THINKING." and you know what? that's improvement. that's good.
2. if you're looking back to when you were 13, don't think about what you regret, forgive yourself and relish in the comfort you once had with experimenting, the freedom you had. you know what i'll say it again: FORGIVE YOURSELF
everyone should remember that every day you learn new things about the world, some will make you want to cry.... or make you actually cry, but remember every once in a while to look back at how far you've come!
okay this got really rambly and sappy and i'm not even sure if it's comprehensible, peeps may not believe me too, that's fine, you do you guys
you do you
Update/FIND ME ELSEWHERE
Hey all- it's been a while. i'm mostly just on here as a lurker now to keep an eye on adoptable designs and artists i can't find elsewhere. i won't be posting any new work here for the foreseeable future for... quite a few reasons but one i feel i should make myself clear on: Israel is an apartheid state and is enacting genocide against Palestinians. that one journal and hashtag a couple weeks ago on this site was total garbage pushed by wix, the Israeli company that owns deviantart. If you aren't already informed about what is happening, and why a ceasefire is imperative, Decolonize Palestine (https://decolonizepalestine.com/introduction-to-palestine/) is a great resource. The long and short of it is, though, that the actions of a small group can never justify the destruction of their entire people. If anything, let that be your guiding principle when you sift through the news. Anyway The social media landscape sucks. With twitter tanking, and most other sites becoming data silos
Okay let's talk about AI art (rant)
Seeing a LOT of takes around and i tell you what it's frustrating to see people making these statements that don't seem to actually have any thought put into them, or that bely a very black and white view. First off, AI art, the end product isn't theft. Calling it theft is really wholesale missing what the problem is. By the time the data has gotten to the user putting prompts into a generator, it's already been processed. The real assholes using AI keep bringing this up, they are making fun of you for it. Let's say you're a pig farmer, and one of your pigs gets stolen, butchered, and sold to a sausage maker. Why would you yell at the people buying the sausages for eating your pig, when you could yell at the sausage maker about checking their meat is from a reliable source, or go get someone to investigate who took your pig? What is true is that the dataset used to train the AI was scraped from webpages without user knowledge or consent, and THAT dataset was then used by large
Moving to Buzzly
i REALLY cannot stand this site layout anymore, and truly the only thing keeping me here is the artists i can't find anywhere else (and the adoptables but i gotta cut down on those .-.) i'll still lurk here every so often but if you want to see any new work i post, you can follow me on twitter, buzzly, or toyhouse: https://twitter.com/malusdraco_art https://buzzly.art/~Malusdraco https://toyhou.se/Malusdraco s'been real lads
I'm not leaving but...
the more i use buzzly, the more i'm reminded of how DA's gone down the shitter, and i'm one of the ones who stuck through eclipse! i'm stubborn enough to have stayed here even after twitter became the new thing, after tumblr died out, and i've shilled for this place for longer than it deserves honestly. which is all to say that i know there are a lot of alternatives cropping up, and it's annoying to be baited into thinking something is It, i get that, but i've never been so impressed by a site from the get-go, and i think if the devs stay on this track it could be just a real good place to put your stuff on it's currently in beta now but it's giving me the warm fuzzies from old DA vibes, except it's got like, considerably more interesting features anyway, check me out if that's sold you, i need more people to follow there: https://buzzly.art/~Malusdraco
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This really got to me, idk I feel like I was like that A LOT and idk, as an artist, I look up to you and your skill, idk you're a big inspiration.
And as M'rin said YES YOU IMPROVED A LOT!
And I have no doubt you'll keep improving!
But yeah, a lot's different than it was and there are a lot of regrets, but as long as you're good where you are now, than all that shit's okay.
All I can say is thanks for being my buddy!
And as M'rin said YES YOU IMPROVED A LOT!
And I have no doubt you'll keep improving!
But yeah, a lot's different than it was and there are a lot of regrets, but as long as you're good where you are now, than all that shit's okay.
All I can say is thanks for being my buddy!